Super Massive Black Hole

well, hum.
talked to you the other night... i loved how it felt. =/ though its hard to forget some things, its just the hope that your better that worries me. i just want to be certain that .. everything is.. okay now. only because i know it got so rough at one point. well, i would have to assume it did.
but.. it was good. about 5 minutes of awkwardness, then it was.. just a rush to talk. to fill each other in on everything. just .. to tell each other what we have missed from each other's lives. because we watched it, we all.. knew about a lot of stuff. we just werent personally there for a lot of it. and thats okay.
because now, i can only hope that we can catch up, and maybe not be the bestest of friends, .. but good friends. i mean, we can work on the best friends thing.. but its gonna take a while. its been to long for it to be too easy.
lol. i was so worried the morning after that talk. because i had classics, and i knew you were going to be there.i waslike.. huh. say hi, say.. something? lol. but you kinda were gone in about 3 seconds when the bell went, so.. my super awesome plan of saying hi didnt really work.
even a smile would be good, a wave from across the yard. whatever. just to kinda know i didnt imagine it =P
and i know sacha feels the same.

i do have to say i have felt better, and somewhat more comforatble at school now.
i mean, aside from the fact a vast majority of my 'friends' dont even actually .. well. they bitch about me, thanks guys, even people who DONT EVEN KNOW ME AT ALL feel they have some right to talk about me. like. for fucks sake, just.. go die. lol. you should be old enough to deal, and stop having a cry.

and you know what? someone in my english class totally stole my theme, so fuck you. i hate you. you took my precious theme, and i hate you for that. i mean, i hated you before.
but more so now.
thats it.

xx