its annoying.
beacuse, i feel like.. i want to change myself.
im bored with how i look, or i dont know.. its just weird.
its a weird feeling.. but
sigh. i dont know.
you know how you have those days, and you just think, like.
how you just dont likehow you look? like, not that im saying you know, im just the grossest thing to walk on this planet.
but..
i just wish i was one of those girls, that people were like,
oh yeah i know her
she has the most gorgeous eyes
she is beautiful
the funniest person i have ever met!
she dresses really well.
she is so unique!
etc.
i dont know.
well, i dont know.
not that im gonna go shave all my hair off, and not that im looking for attention.
just.
i wanna feel just so, confident in myself.
and i know that im not.
i know hardly anyone is.
ah jeez now i sound all like.. sorry for myself.
but... i dont know.
its just something im thinking.
like, someone i know.
when she reads this she will know who she is.
but she is gorgeous, so tall, thin, has great legs, blonde hair.. i dont know. when people see her they see her as beautiful, and adorable, and sweet.
im just being envious.
if i could steal some qualities of some people.
like, personality
then maybe i would be nice to new people i meet.
or be more confident, less lazy. taller, of course.
smarter, of course. i envy my boyfriend for that.
but.
its not like i can do anything about it.
so im gonna have to learn to be happy with who i am.
=PP
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you're writing about me right? i could tell as soon as i saw the word 'tall' that this was compeletely about me NOT lololol, it's odd, i was just thinking about change before well *cuddles* i love you however you choose to look, and I think you have lots of good qualities, like you're so good at talking to guys, and you have the prettiest hair, and the gorgeous pale skin, and you can always decide whether or not to show your feelings to people, as opposed to me who will just break down. Lol i know you ae thinking 'shutup michelle you poohead' and probably dismissing all the points I just made, but too bad :P
ReplyDeleteI reckon your adorable.
ReplyDeleteI also understand the way you feel.
xx
are you talking about me lol
ReplyDeleteand yeah i no what you mean
i have those days all the time!
and trust me
everyone feels like that
everyone doesnt want what they have
and wants something else
but in our heads
there is always someone prettier out there
someone we are jealous of
and it sucks balls!
and if you were talking about me
im jealous of you!
im annoyed with being tall
most of the boys are shorter than me and it sucks
whats so great about being tall?
you get to wear heels
and look all pretty
and being small is cute and adorable
and im like ... a giant
bahaha
and trust me im not thin
i dont give a shit what you say lol
but sweetie
you really are gorgez!
and you no what
i think all these things about you
she has the most gorgeous eyes
she is beautiful
the funniest person i have ever met!
she dresses really well.
she is so unique!
your eyes are gorgez!
they are soo much bluer than mine
stupid grey lol
im jealous seriously
and you are beautiful!
im not friends with ugly people!
and you are always making me laugh
like actually crying lol
with the moo moo
hahahha
and that dress you wore to the movies the other night...
lets just say
i wasnt watching the movie ;)
bahahaha!
ok i obviously was
but you get what i mean =P
and you are soo unique
and i love you for it!
i reckon we need a make over tho
to make ourselves feel pretty again
coz im feeling pretty down about it too!
we should cut our hair again
coz my fringe is pissing me off!
sorry about the giant long comment
but i felt like talking lol
i love you
dont EVER change!
xxx